little find

So I found this little pink nosed pup in the Valentine's section at Target today. I instantly fell in love. It was the last one and since I had a gift card from Ronald I decided to get it (it was only $14.99). It's a candy dish but I am going to see if it can hold water because I can imagine a bunch of red or pink carnations put in it for Valentine's day! I can't wait to find a place for him in the house!

I have been in a lot of pain the last few days. Yesterday I had a horrible headache. Nothing made it better until I went to sleep for an hour or so. I feel the headache coming back right now even though I am on a bunch of ibuprofen. This morning I woke up with my back being so incredibly sore. It felt like my spine was all tensed up. This fibromyalgia thing is still so new to me. I ordered two books that I hope will give me some good information. I also started keeping a pain diary last night, where I will take note of the pain I experienced that day and if I did anything to trigger it.

I was planning on taking down Christmas decorations today. I was excited to put some new things out that have been hiding in our spare rooms, but I don't think that will happen today.

I am telling myself that it's all okay. That it's okay to hurt and it won't last forever. Pain is so demoralizing though. I'm sad. Sad because I can't function normally. Sad because Ronald is back at work and I miss him. Sad because I'm not tired enough to sleep and not energized enough to even stand up right now. I hate watching television by myself, or just sitting around. I want to do something but I can't push myself when I am already at my limit.

I have to learn to live with this though, and be gentle with myself. Cricket just came over and gave me some kisses. She thinks that makes it all better, and I wish it did too.

xx, C


  1. I'm glad they figured out where your pain is coming from.
    Sweet little Cricket.

  2. That little weenie dog is adorable.
    I'm glad you finally figured out what was wrong so you have a name for it. Little by little I'm
    sure you'll be getting your energy up and doing little things here and there.
    I would love to see some more arrangements ;)

  3. I love the little puppy bowl!!! Too cute!
    I hope you find some answers in those books, I'm sure it's a confusing time right now. Hang in there! <3

  4. That is just too cute. I'm pretty confident you're going to have a much better year in 2013. Just keep your head up!


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