5 things you may not know about me part II

So just to make life exciting...I'm still sick! It's been over two weeks! I took an antibiotic but it only helped a little. Now I can sort of function, but only a little each day. 😭 But today I am going to Target! So excited because I've been home bound for the most part this whole time. I miss wearing makeup (this is an old photo), and I can't wait to feel better! The good news is Ron is taking next week off work, so we are going to rest and adventure together!

I thought I would post another 5 things you don't know about me. So here goes...

1. My favorite snuggly blanket is a quilt full of holes! It tears all the time because the fabric is so thin, but thats also what makes it so soft and cuddly!

2. I sleep with a big soft grey teddy bear named Tiny. Lately I can't fall asleep without holding him. 

3. I have flashbacks to ECT. I get feelings and visions of being in the room or being put under anesthesia. It usually happens when I'm trying to go to sleep.

4. My birthday is in a few days and I'm turning 34! I get so excited about my birthday, but it ends up being a sad day for me. I'm lucky to have made it this far, and I'm going to make it to my next birthday. 

5. I am a vegetarian for ethical reasons and Ron isn't but he's so amazing and makes vegetarian meals for us during the week. He makes foods like crispy potato tacos with chilis, and my favorite fettuccini with lemon and parmesan cream sauce. Yum!


Sick Girl

Hi Loves!

So I'm still sick! It's been over a week and I haven't been able to function at all! I went to the doctor yesterday and got some antibiotics, I hope they kick in soon. I'm also super bummed because I'm going to miss The Woman's March tomorrow which I have been so looking forward to! All I do right now is sit and try to pass the time, drink smoothies and water, overdose on vitamin C, and sleep. Here are the two main things getting me through besides Ronald who has been amazing!

I am loving this novel! It's set in the 1760s and is about a young woman going to London to build a life for herself so she can take care of her aging father and disabled sister who live in the country. She grew up in the country so London is a big shock for her and she also learns about the political issues of the day. It's so well written, I'm about a third of the way through, and can't wait to see what happens!

The Crown is so fucking good! I watched season 1 last year right before ECT, but due to the memory loss I completely forgot it! So I had the joy of rewatching season 1. I started season 2 yesterday and it continues to be amazing. If you haven't watched it yet, I highly recommend it! It's on Netflix.

Claire Foy looks so much like Queen Elizabeth, it's crazy!

My fave character is Princess Margaret, who is played by Vanessa Kirby. She is so cute, sexy, cool, passionate, and a party girl, who is not sure how she fits in. I so want to be her! 😂

I hope I'm better soon, and that you pick up and start reading The Hidden Thread, or watch the Crown. If you do, let me know!

xo, C


5 things you may not know about me

I thought it would be fun to share a few things about myself that you may not know so you can get to know me more. If you would like, you could share something new about yourself in the comments, I'd love to learn more about you!

1.) I grew up in San Diego and was lucky to live just a few minutes from the beach! It was so great to live near the ocean and hope I can do that again!

2.) I have dyed my hair since I was fourteen. I love being a redhead, but I've also had black hair (so hard to keep up!). I would love to try pastel colors like lavender and pink, but my hair is so dark now and I really don't want to have to bleach it. Overtone has changed my life!

3.) I still consider myself a writer even though I don't write much anymore. It's a big struggle for me to sit down and write because of my anxiety and depression, but when I do I feel so alive and like myself.

4.) I love home design and took our as-is total disaster hole-in-the-floors house from a mess to a mostly gorgeous family home. I designed our kitchen from scratch as well as our two bathrooms, and I did cosmetic things through every room and the exterior. It still needs a lot of work because it was such a train wreck when we bought it, but I love our home! 

5.) I love fashion and have a ton of clothes! I have less now as I went up a size so most of my pinup clothes don't fit, but I still have more than enough clothes to mix and match outfits. I also have lots of costume jewelry, shoes, and accessories. I'm getting more into makeup and have lots of lipstick, but I want to get a really fancy eyeshadow pallet. My $10 Target one has loads of colors and works great for now! Of course, having a lot of fashion things is nice, but what I like most is the joy I find in putting together fun and unique outfits and feeling expressive and true to myself. 😊

Tell me something about yourself!

All the love, C


"Just down below me is the old sea, just down below me is the old sea."

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud

-Patty Griffin

I wake up in so much pain when it rains. My mood has been up and down and I've been feeling worse than usual physically. But I'm hanging on. I know how it goes. I fight tooth and nail and have a good day or a few and that keeps me going. 

Winter has been hard on my mood because of the lack of sunshine and how wet and worn the garden is. I don't have a nice place to sit out there as our swing is broken and constantly damp. Nature is one of the things I love most and it totally keeps me going. I can't wait to have a yard that is landscaped and has a dedicated garden...something to look forward to.

So for now I trudge out to the deck and pine over my dying roses and plants, bundled in my hot pink robe. Then I come back inside to the cozy warm house and try to rest and care for myself. Life has been slow going because my anxiety is giving me a lot of trouble in getting out of the house and going to coffee or anything much. I'm working on it though. I'm hoping things will cheer up when the sun comes back out.

xo, C