Sick Girl

Hi Loves!

So I'm still sick! It's been over a week and I haven't been able to function at all! I went to the doctor yesterday and got some antibiotics, I hope they kick in soon. I'm also super bummed because I'm going to miss The Woman's March tomorrow which I have been so looking forward to! All I do right now is sit and try to pass the time, drink smoothies and water, overdose on vitamin C, and sleep. Here are the two main things getting me through besides Ronald who has been amazing!

I am loving this novel! It's set in the 1760s and is about a young woman going to London to build a life for herself so she can take care of her aging father and disabled sister who live in the country. She grew up in the country so London is a big shock for her and she also learns about the political issues of the day. It's so well written, I'm about a third of the way through, and can't wait to see what happens!

The Crown is so fucking good! I watched season 1 last year right before ECT, but due to the memory loss I completely forgot it! So I had the joy of rewatching season 1. I started season 2 yesterday and it continues to be amazing. If you haven't watched it yet, I highly recommend it! It's on Netflix.

Claire Foy looks so much like Queen Elizabeth, it's crazy!

My fave character is Princess Margaret, who is played by Vanessa Kirby. She is so cute, sexy, cool, passionate, and a party girl, who is not sure how she fits in. I so want to be her! 😂

I hope I'm better soon, and that you pick up and start reading The Hidden Thread, or watch the Crown. If you do, let me know!

xo, C


5 things you may not know about me

I thought it would be fun to share a few things about myself that you may not know so you can get to know me more. If you would like, you could share something new about yourself in the comments, I'd love to learn more about you!

1.) I grew up in San Diego and was lucky to live just a few minutes from the beach! It was so great to live near the ocean and hope I can do that again!

2.) I have dyed my hair since I was fourteen. I love being a redhead, but I've also had black hair (so hard to keep up!). I would love to try pastel colors like lavender and pink, but my hair is so dark now and I really don't want to have to bleach it. Overtone has changed my life!

3.) I still consider myself a writer even though I don't write much anymore. It's a big struggle for me to sit down and write because of my anxiety and depression, but when I do I feel so alive and like myself.

4.) I love home design and took our as-is total disaster hole-in-the-floors house from a mess to a mostly gorgeous family home. I designed our kitchen from scratch as well as our two bathrooms, and I did cosmetic things through every room and the exterior. It still needs a lot of work because it was such a train wreck when we bought it, but I love our home! 

5.) I love fashion and have a ton of clothes! I have less now as I went up a size so most of my pinup clothes don't fit, but I still have more than enough clothes to mix and match outfits. I also have lots of costume jewelry, shoes, and accessories. I'm getting more into makeup and have lots of lipstick, but I want to get a really fancy eyeshadow pallet. My $10 Target one has loads of colors and works great for now! Of course, having a lot of fashion things is nice, but what I like most is the joy I find in putting together fun and unique outfits and feeling expressive and true to myself. 😊

Tell me something about yourself!

All the love, C


"Just down below me is the old sea, just down below me is the old sea."

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud

-Patty Griffin

I wake up in so much pain when it rains. My mood has been up and down and I've been feeling worse than usual physically. But I'm hanging on. I know how it goes. I fight tooth and nail and have a good day or a few and that keeps me going. 

Winter has been hard on my mood because of the lack of sunshine and how wet and worn the garden is. I don't have a nice place to sit out there as our swing is broken and constantly damp. Nature is one of the things I love most and it totally keeps me going. I can't wait to have a yard that is landscaped and has a dedicated garden...something to look forward to.

So for now I trudge out to the deck and pine over my dying roses and plants, bundled in my hot pink robe. Then I come back inside to the cozy warm house and try to rest and care for myself. Life has been slow going because my anxiety is giving me a lot of trouble in getting out of the house and going to coffee or anything much. I'm working on it though. I'm hoping things will cheer up when the sun comes back out.

xo, C


"Blue lips, blue veins, blue the color of our planet from far far away."

Hi. This is me doing an outfit post. 🙈

I'm weird because I am both super tough and super shy. It kind of depends on the day really. Well, yesterday I was feelin' myself so I had Ron take a few photos of my outfit. So lucky to have a great brick background right on the front of our house! Also, I am still trying to perfect the poses...it's so awkward for me and I just don't know what to do!

I'm really falling in love with black dresses. My whole life I wouldn't wear black dresses, especially since Ron and I have been together because my anxiety disorder thinks wearing a black dress will somehow make it more likely for Ron to die. I know...anxiety is fucking weird. I have a ton of thoughts and "rules" like that. But I have had this beautiful dress in my closet for years and it was finally time to face the fear and wear it!

So a few details:

The dress is from Torrid but I don't think they carry it any more.

I got the shoes from DSW ages ago, they are Report brand and so comfy! I really want more lace up boots. What's your favorite type of boots?

The cropped cardigan is from Pinup Girl Clothing I think they are a must for dresses and skirts! They carry them from size small to 4x. Modcloth sells an identical one a bit cheaper and in size xxs to 4x.

I love this blue lipstick! It stays on all day and I get so many compliments on it...so shimmery! It's Kat von D Everlasting Glimmer Veil Liquid Lipstick in Satellite, I also have it in Razzle and that's a great shade too! I want it in all the colors!

The necklace is a Christmas gift from Ron, it's a silver star with a piece of an actual meteorite on it. It's amazing. You should have heard what Ron said when he gave it to me about how strong he thinks I am, I cried so much! I don't know how I got so lucky to have him in my life.

I'm hoping to add more black dresses to my wardrobe. Off to look for some good deals for them online! What do you love wearing right now?

xo, C