down and out

Not having the best weekend so far. Nothing is particularly wrong, my mood just is flat and depressed. I feel like crying at every turn and feel rotten. I hate depression, sometimes I just hate who I am and how I can't always control my mood.  

I know I need to be gentle with myself, and that depression is an illness not a character flaw but its still frustrating and sad and awful. Its like my brain knows it isn't me, but my heart doesn't totally believe that I am not just a major screw up.

Anyway, this afternoon R and I are going on a date and I hope that will help a pinch. We'll see...

xx, C

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