lonely hermit

Hi Dolls,

I've been a lonely hermit these days. Holy shit loneliness is the worst. I had an extremely lonely childhood and I find that it has followed me into my adult years. I have been withdrawing like crazy and that makes it so much worse.

I've had a few weeks of low energy along with a fibro flare which just ruined me. I could hardly shower and actually used a garden chair in the shower just to be able to bathe! It was pretty ridiculous but I'm starting to feel better (even went for a walk this morning). 

I have so many things I am looking forward and wanting to do but I'm dealing with a lot of psychological and emotional issues as well as anxiety. It's really holding me back. But I'm doing my absolute best to move forward and not creep back into depression.

I'm realizing more and more that I love living a simple life and if my emotional and health issues would just ease up a bit I could really get to a content place. I love quiet days and doing little creative projects. Gardening, cooking, snuggling pups, reading, writing notes, these are all my favorites and I have the opportunity to do those things, which is great! But my main focus is getting better health wise, and it's so difficult, but that's ok. It's happening, slowly but surely. 

I'm hoping to come back to this space more and have a few posts in the works, so stick around.

xo, C

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