not good

"I think I made you up inside my head." -Sylvia Plath

Things aren't going well. I had a pretty serious depression meltdown last night. I just feel hopeless and like I honestly don't know what to do with all this pain. I never thought I could go through so much and still be living, but here I am, sort of alive, feeling it all, and it really hurts.

Good thoughts are welcome.

xx, C


  1. Praying for you Catherine. May peace invade your soul and bring comfort to your heart and mind.

  2. I like your picture. Keep reaching up, my dear. Remember that even on the hard days, we are here with you.... Love you

  3. Me too honey this illness is like a curse sometimes :-( i find talking to God helps maybe it will for you too hun if not hope those grey clouds clear soon neway :-) lv c xx

  4. oh man catherine...I feel for you! my heart broke for you when I read this post!
    You know, I have felt like you feel, but all I know is that God is faithful. He will never give you more than you can bare.
    if you would like, on my blog, there is a list of popular posts, on that list, there is a post titled "say it with me...I'm a rubberband"
    it's a video blog and i talk about how you will never be pushed past your limit...i hope it encouragess you.
    and though you don't know me, I am praying for you.
    goodnight, Catherine!

  5. Dear Catherine,
    I know it hurts so much but believe me there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. Hang on there my dear;My heart aches for you. sending you tons of prayers.

  6. Oh boy. I only just stumbled upon your blog and I like it a lot. I'm having very similar misadventures in mental illness right now. Maybe this is just an unhappy season? Hang in there, it's going to pass.

  7. it might be the season. thoughts of love from one broken brain to another. xoxoxo


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