...things I'm afraid to tell you

This post about sharing things you are afraid to talk about on your blog is spreading around today and I thought I would take part.

So here goes...(I'm nervous).

1. I could list the number of friends I have on one hand.

2. I think my fear will keep me from success in writing.

3. Even though I am very happily married I still struggle with loneliness.

4. I am so afraid that my husband will die in an accident that I have panic attacks thinking about it.

5. I am worried my life will end tragically.

6. I have been on anti-depressants for five years.

7. I wake hungry every night around 3:30 and have a bowl of cereal.

8. I watch kids movies to fall asleep at night.

9. I constantly feel judged, the only relief is when I am alone.

10. I always think I smell bad even right after a shower.

11. I get images of car accidents happening every time I drive.

12. I go to therapy twice a week and sometimes that doesn't feel like enough.


  1. I could put a lot of those on my list as well. Thanks for being brave enough to share!

  2. I think 10/12 apply to me, so you are certainly not alone, my lovely. I have never quite worked out the car one, and it seems to me that there is a little more to it than just fear of driving (I fear driving quite a bit). It's all very strange, isn't it? But then I suppose thoughts are. Normally. I must say though that since I have been on one of the medications, these have largely calmed down, thankfully. And I think you will find that as time goes on, yours will too.

    Brave little flower.

    :-) x N

  3. After reading that list you seem pretty normal to me! I read a study somewhere that put relationship into levels to assess how many close relationships was normal. Most people only have 3 or 4 close friends! That's one hand just like you :)
    That you for sharing all this though. To be honest I'm not ready to be so vulnerable on my blog...


  4. Thanks Quiet Owl and Nic. Its nice but kind of bittersweet that I'm not alone. Because I know most of the things listed weren't happy ones.

    Shakti- it is hard to be honest in blog land. So many people just want to be happy all the time and that just isn't the truth for everyone.

    xx, C

  5. Thanks for being open and honest with us! I did one of these posts as well and may do one again in the near future :)

    xo Shane


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