leading me now

It's been a while. I have been so tired and in pain that I haven't been doing much of anything. Since last night my left arm has been so sore that I can't lift it properly. It's basically useless and I can't do any chores or even shower . This morning I went out to run an errand but once I got to the parking lot and had to face being in public, I started crying and decided to just head home. It was a bad day. I cried most of the way home...

When I got out of my car in our driveway I saw a huge bird sitting on the telephone wire just staring at me. I tried to stay still and just looked at it. We looked at each other for a while. Then I grabbed my phone and took some photos. The bird just stayed there! I ran in the house and got my real camera and took the photos above.

I think it is a hawk. It let me get so close, chirped at me once, and even let me walk under it! It was a cool experience. I went inside and peaked out my window to see if it was there a few times. It stayed for a while longer, then I looked and it was gone.

I'm taking it as a sign that I need to be strong and courageous. And that maybe one day things will get better.

Once I feel a bit better. I will announce some exciting ideas I have for my creative/blog life. :)

xx, C


  1. I love hawks! You got some great pictures!

  2. Cool pics! I always feel really lucky when I see a hawk up close. That just reminded me that a bird flew in to my windshield on the way to work this morning. Terrifying!

    That is badass you're taking it as a sign to be strong and courageous.. I would think that too. And to let you just walk around it and under it. I wonder if it's your spirit animal. How cool.


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